I was accepted into the MFA program of Visual Arts by Vermont College of Fine Art. I am humbled and honored to have been accepted. It is a low residency program which means I can work in the comfort of my own studio, continue working my fabulous day job, and spend time with my family. This sounds like the perfect set up? Why, yes. Yes, it is the perfect set up.
But I am TERRIFIED. I will be required to delve into my art and my practice like never before. I will need to analyze my practice in a new way. It is exciting and terrifying. I will need to show my work to people who can help be be a better artist and that scares the heck out of me. I will need to write about my work and research things. (again this sounds perfect right?!)
I liken the experience of having my work critiqued to sliding down a slide made of razor blades into a pool of alcohol. I know that I WANT to do the program. I consider myself a life long learner. I want to participate more than anything, but the pain, the agony of sharing my work and being vulnerable. The thing is…I know that I will still be painting. I paint. Painting make me whole. But studying my work, analyzing my work, and presenting to other talented artists? I know I need to do that to continue growing. Imposter syndrome sets in and I start to think I am not good enough.
Then there is the cost… Thank you for reading and commenting.